Wisdom of Dis-ease 3 疾病的智慧：系列3

Many years ago, one night while I was deep asleep, I was woken up by a sudden sharp pain on my right upper arm. It was really excruciating! I spontaneously communicated with my arm, asking for the reason why I should feel the pain. There must be a good reason for this pain to remind me about.

Suddenly, I heard a voice from within, “Hey, you are controlling your husband!” “Oooops, that’s the reason!”

It was such a revelation. Undeniably, I have been a domineering person, quite equivalent to Empress Dowager. Very often, I am self-centred, opinionated and not easy to compromise. Hence, I often act like the head of the family. It is not easy for my husband really.

Funny enough, upon realizing such character of mine and accepted it as it was, the pain reduced tremendously immediately. Till today, the excruciating pain has not recurred but remains as something niggling there. Obviously, it is still reminding me that I am still domineering!

Clinically, this excruciating pain is suggestive of cervical spondylosis where a nerve is being impinged upon by the lipping of the vertebra due to degenerative changes of the spine, causing the excruciating pain. Though I did not do a cervical X-ray for confirmation, this diagnosis is clinically suggestive.

Since I started learning Astrology, I come to understand myself better. I have my Mars conjunct South Node in Aries, suggestive that I have brought forward this kind of negative character of Aries from the past. No wonder I am here to deal with relationship which is something quite difficult for me.

However, over the constant awareness and acceptance while going through the difficult path of life, gradually the North Node Libran characters surface. I become more accommodating, tolerant and less aggressive. At least my relationship has improved. Body is more at ease and comfortable.

好多年前的一个晚上，我正在甜蜜的睡梦中，突然感觉到右手臂激痛， 把我从梦中惊醒。当时灵机一动，就再和我的手臂沟通，它只所以会痛到这么激烈，一定又有什么东东来提醒我。

突然，我听到一个内在的声音说，“你在掌控你的老公！” “哦，原来如此！”

一棒敲醒梦中人； 无可厚非，我的性格倔强，自认自己是慈禧太后，很多时候都会坚持己见，我行我素，不容易屈服，所以经常是一家之主, 难为了我的先生。

很奇怪的是，一觉察到我这种心态之后，这激痛很快的减轻到剩下少许；至今，它都没有大发作过，只有少许的感觉罢了！很明显的，这少许的感觉，当然还在提醒我的掌控趋向，提醒我修得还不够彻底吧！

这手臂的激痛，临床经验告诉我，它是颈椎长骨刺，刺激了手臂神经线。虽然我没有去照X光来确认，临床经验是很明显的。

近6年学了占星学之后，了解自己更多； 我的星盘里的南交点与火星合相入牡羊，这指示了原来我过去世（南交点提示过去世的趋向）带来的以上牡羊缺点，难怪我今世需要“搞关系“！

透过时时刻刻的觉察与接纳，走了一段漫长与困难的路，渐渐的我迈向北交点天秤的态度，至少现在关系改善，感觉身体没那么僵硬，自在多了！